I am more loving than you can fathom and more complicated than you can comprehend.
“Lord, my God, I called to you for help, and you healed me.” Psalm 30:2
Of course, we all wish that this verse referred primarily to physical healing, which would happen this side of eternity. I do cling to this verse, believing that God has physical healing for me here and that He cares very much about the infirmity of my body. But I also know that God is still the great healer even if I don’t see a physical healing this side of eternity. For, although God is filled with compassion and grieves with me over my physical illness, He is even more concerned about the destiny of my soul. As I pray for physical healing, help me to always value the fact that by Christ’s death and resurrection, God has healed me of the most important thing and given me a new future that will never perish, spoil or fade.
So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal. —2 Corinthians 4:18
Today will start my first treatment at Betsy’s. We will run it at 8 a.m. and 8 p.m. each Monday, Wednesday and Friday.
The test run last Wednesday has caused me pain in the glands and lymph nodes in my neck, sharp pain in my spine, neck and shoulders and pretty severe headaches. This nuisance reminds me that God is much more in control of my health and life than I ever could have understood when I was well. In the health struggles that I’ve gone through, I am reminded that each breath I take is a gift from Him and should never be taken for granted. I pray that I will look for the blessings around me even when I am in pain. They are there because He is who He says He is, the suffering servant, the overcomer, my sword and shield, the compassionate and gracious one, the giver of all good things.
In the most difficult health moments when I’m too exhausted to even get up and read, the following song has provided me much encouragement and hope. I hope that it will for you, too.
Thanks again for your prayers and encouragement. I am blessed to call you a friend!